Happy New Month! It’s been a rollercoaster of a year, but boy am I happy to be in the first ember month of 2020!
Today, I’ll be giving a life update on my journey to finding inner peace. This year has sure been tough for a lot of people, and for the whole world. For me, it has not been the easiest, but in that, I have discovered that finding inner peace is a process. A journey. A somewhat slow one, but a journey nonetheless.
A lot of things give people peace, but most of those things are usually temporary. Cars, money, fame, knowledge etc., are all ephemeral because most times, the peace that they give does not really last. With every trying time, that peace dissipates like passing wind.
For the most part of this year, that has been me. Holding on to things and people that give me peace for a while. The bigger shock comes from realising that the lack of these things steals my peace. Then I ask myself, was that really peace in the first place? If without that thing, I become sad, then I never had peace in the first place.
I have come to realise that the best kind of peace is that which comes from a place that has more depth, and that for me, is in a restful relationship with Christ. This also is not an automatic pass for me, because there are times when I feel so overwhelmed that I cannot even find comfort from reading the Scripture. But as I said, it is a process.
A friend told me a while ago to “dead” everything and everyone that steals my peace.
I couldn’t pin my finger on what really made me feel moody and depressed, but I kept searching and I did find them.
For me, attaining my peace has included cutting off harmful relationships, even from the people around me. It has included keeping to myself and doing things that make me happy, while not staying away from people. It has included finding my place of solitude with the Holy Spirit, and journalling the things I have zero control over, trusting God to come through.
Of course, there are times when I fall off the wagon, but the amazing thing is that I always come back stronger. I am becoming stronger as I seek my strength not from those around me, but from God, and from my inner self. And so far, it has been the best journey!
I never forget that I am undergoing a process that would transform me into the best version of me. And knowing that I am not going through it alone, that Christ strengthens me as I go, I feel much more capable to take on whatever life throws at me.
I hope that you too will find peace in that stormy boat you may be in, and for the rest of your life. Have an amazing September!